Here I am Lord, Send Me!

The Fifth Sunday After Epiphany, Year C

In the year that King Uzziah died, I saw the Lord sitting on a throne, high and lofty; and the hem of his robe filled the temple. Seraphs were in attendance above him; each had six wings: with two they covered their faces, and with two they covered their feet, and with two they flew. And one called to another and said:

“Holy, holy, holy is the Lord of hosts;
the whole earth is full of his glory.”

The pivots on the thresholds shook at the voices of those who called, and the house filled with smoke. And I said: “Woe is me! I am lost, for I am a man of unclean lips, and I live among a people of unclean lips; yet my eyes have seen the King, the Lord of hosts!”

Then one of the seraphs flew to me, holding a live coal that had been taken from the altar with a pair of tongs. The seraph touched my mouth with it and said: “Now that this has touched your lips, your guilt has departed and your sin is blotted out.” Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, “Whom shall I send, and who will go for us?” And I said, “Here am I; send me!”

[And he said, “Go and say to this people:
`Keep listening, but do not comprehend;
keep looking, but do not understand.’
Make the mind of this people dull,
and stop their ears,
and shut their eyes,
so that they may not look with their eyes,
and listen with their ears,
and comprehend with their minds,
and turn and be healed.”

Then I said, “How long, O Lord?” And he said:

“Until cities lie waste
without inhabitant,
and houses without people,
and the land is utterly desolate;
until the Lord sends everyone far away,
and vast is the emptiness in the midst of the land.
Even if a tenth part remain in it,
it will be burned again,
like a terebinth or an oak
whose stump remains standing
when it is felled.”
The holy seed is its stump.]

Isaiah 6:1-8, [9-13]

I’ve come to a revelation recently. I’ve tried to resist it, but the more I think about it the more it seems to be true. Monty Python and the Holy Grail might have the most biblically accurate depiction of God in pop culture. Sorry Morgan Freeman. In case you are one of the six people in this hemisphere that hasn’t seen the film let me make my case. God appears to King Arthur and his knights in rather dramatic fashion and calls for them to listen. But what do they do instead? They fall on their faces and start grovelling. To which God says — “Stand up! I can’t stand everyone grovelling like that! It’s always I’m sorry Lord, I’m unworthy…” And when they try to do the pious thing and avert their eyes God tells them to “stop it”. Only then does he give them their quest: to search for the Holy Grail. Granted, Monty Python is exaggerating the interaction, they have captured in a few moments many thousands of years of Biblical tradition. Because as much as we admire the prophets and heroes of our tradition, all of them give nothing but excuses when God calls for them.

Take Moses, the most significant early prophet. When God calls him to lead the Israelites out of Egypt, what does he say? Can’t God, I stammer in my speech, you’ve got the wrong guy. Or Jeremiah from last week. Can’t God, I’m too young, they won’t listen to me. And this week we have not one, but two people who are too afraid to take up God’s call. Isaiah and Peter. Both of them give God the same excuse. “I’m not worthy!” Peter is so afraid that he yells at Jesus to “Go Away! For I am a sinful man”. Isaiah is afraid that he won’t survive seeing God, tears his clothes and says “woe is me! I am a sinful man”. Honestly the grovelling in Monty Python is less dramatic than these scenes. But God is patient and listens, if only for a moment, to let us air all of our excuses. He is kind that He humors us, but in all these stories he immediately takes those excuses away. You can’t speak well Moses? Fine, have your brother Aaron speak for you, you will lead my people out of Egypt. You think you’re too young Jeremiah? Here are my words exactly, they will listen to that. You’re too sinful Isaiah? BAM! Your sins are blotted out. Peter, don’t be afraid, come with me and become a fisher of men. Excuses, excuses, excuses. God has heard them all, yet at the same time, he raises up these people to do His work. Over, and over again.

But it’s easy for them right? After all, God is coming directly from a cloud, or a burning bush, or standing in the boat. God hasn’t called ME like that. Yes God may not be speaking in pillars of fire, or great storms, or smoke-filled temples. But God is calling. His voice is the poor, the sick, the needy, the broken, the oppressed, and the suffering. As a society we like to shut our ears to their cry because they reflect our failure as God’s people. A society that claims strong Christian roots, yet struggles to share the necessities, let alone the prosperity for all of God’s children.

“Whom shall I send?”

Even though Isaiah’s experience of God seems to be the most foreign, with flying creatures, mystical fire, mouth cleaning coal. (Although I hear that is making a comeback with charcoal toothpaste). His experience isn’t altogether that different from our own. His story begins with a time marker: “The year king Uzziah died”. King Uzziah reigned over the second most prosperous time in Israel’s history. A time where wealth, stability, and military victory rivaled that of king Solomon’s reign. But what looked like success was underpinned by corruption. It wasn’t particularly special corruption, it never is. Pride, the sin of the privileged, took hold of King Uzziah and the country and led them to the conclusion that we all fall into when we get too comfortable: that we can save the world without God.

The novel A Canticle for Leibowitz captures the challenge of both Isaiah’s and our time:

“The closer men came to perfecting for themselves a paradise, the more impatient they became with it, and with themselves as well. They made a garden of pleasure, and became progressively more miserable with it as it grew in richness and power and beauty; for then, perhaps, it was easier to see something was missing in the garden, some tree or shrub that would not grow. When the world was in darkness and wretchedness, it could believe in perfection and yearn for it. But when the world became bright with reason and riches, it began to sense the narrowness of the needle’s eye, and that rankled for a world no longer willing to believe or yearn.”

Walter M. Miller Jr., A Canticle for Leibowitz

We like to believe we are different from our ancestors, that with all our marvels and “progressive” , “reasonable” societies we are so much more superior. We are more comfortable for sure, but that simply makes us more vulnerable to the same sin that Uzziah and Isaiah’s contemporaries fell into. It is a myth of modern thought to believe that everything was inherently going to get better as time goes on. For the last 300 years or so we have convinced ourselves that progress is unstoppable, and humanity is going nowhere but up. Only now are we starting to see the cracks form. We thought that with more and more advanced technology we could solve every problem. But technology only grants us a reprieve. The nuclear fission that was supposed to give us unlimited energy was harnessed to create the most horrible and terrifying weapons ever seen on this earth. The medicines that were meant to comfort the dying have been abused to create an crisis of addiction all for the sake of raising share prices. The social networks that were designed to bring humanity together and promote diversity, freethinking, and growth have become echo chambers, liars, and divided us in ways we previously thought impossible.

How Long, Lord? How long… God has just told Isaiah the terrible news that Israel is going to suffer, that they will not listen. God is done hearing groveling. “How long?’ is the question that Isaiah asks God. This is one of the hardest passages in the Bible, because God is perfectly honest with Isaiah. It’s going to get worse before it gets better. And this is Isaiah’s commission. Isaiah has to help his people navigate one of the most painful and difficult times in their history. They are being cut like a tree, the good times are over. But God promises that like the oak tree from the stump new growth will come. God will save us, but we need to make it through this time first.

God made good on his promise to Isaiah. Because God did make that new growth. God has already saved the world. When He came and lived among us, recruited fishermen to become fishers of men, suffered, died, and rose again. All for us. As we look ahead to the future and worry and wonder: “where is God, where are the prophets, and why are we facing so many problems?”  God is here. You are his prophets. The problems we are facing are our own creations. God has already done his part. He saved the world. He has given us all tools we need to prepare His kingdom. Through Christ God has purified us to speak his word like Isaiah with the hot coal. Like Peter he has invited us to come with him to heal the world. God has taken away all of our excuses.

God can work through you, or God can work in spite of you. You have been called, now it is your choice to make. This is your opportunity to say: “Here I am Lord, send me!”

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